BOOK BABBLE: UNDER ROSE-TAINTED SKIES!

I have gotten behind on my reading recently. Books that I purchased weeks, months, even years ago, got lost in the disarray that was my bedroom. But, I purchased a new bookshelf and purged many of the unwanted things that kept my personal space cluttered beyond what any person could ever withstand, and now I’m able to get back to what brings me such joy — reading, and writing, and feeling at peace in my comfort zone that wasn’t very comfortable for quite a long time.

I’m not going to call this a review. I’m going to call this a “babble” because that’s what I’m doing. Babbling about something that has brought so much happiness into my life.

I picked up Under Rose-Tainted Skies by Louise Gornall last night, and I finished it today. It took me less than 24 hours to read 326 pages when I haven’t read more than 50 pages in the last few months.

Norah’s struggle reminded me very much of my own. Do I have OCD or Agoraphobia? Nope. I don’t. But, I do have anxiety, and I do find it difficult (often impossible) to leave my house some days. For the longest time, I would only leave once a week to see my therapist. I have self-harmed in the name of finding control. I have pushed away many of my friends, and I have struggled with facing them again. Before now, I had never read a novel about mental illness. Now that I have, I want to read every novel about mental illness. Finding a character that you can relate to on such a deep level is thrilling.

Luke reminded me of an old friend. A boy I fell in love with, a few years ago. I was scared to tell him about my struggles, so afraid he would tease or just stop being my ‘pal’ as we liked to call one another. I never told him everything, but I told him what I felt was necessary for a possible boyfriend to know. He was supportive and kind, and I appreciate the time I spent with him. He’s no longer in my life. Not every story ends happily. But, I feel such joy knowing that I had my very own Luke, even if only for a short while.

Norah’s mom and my mom are so similar, it almost scares me. How did Louise Gornall meet my mother and create a character inspired by her without me ever knowing it? Soft, and kind, and loving, and my safety net. That’s what my mother is to me, and that’s what Norah’s mother is to her. God blessed me with the most beautiful mom a wack-job like me could ever hope for.

For as long as I can remember, I’ve assumed that after enough years of swallowing pills and going to therapy every week, I’d be healed. Cured. “Normal” at last. This book helped me realize that (a) “normal” isn’t a real thing, (b) our differences make us beautiful, (c) we’re worthy of being loved despite our struggles, (d) we can overcome everything this life throws our way.

I’m thankful for Norah’s story. I’m thankful for Louise. I’m thankful for the power of literature.

I’m positive some things could have been handled better within this book. This isn’t me saying that there aren’t flaws, or that it’s a perfect work of art. It is not. But it touched me in a way that a book hasn’t in over a year, and I appreciate the way I felt during the hours I spent reading it.

If you haven’t read this beautiful novel, I suggest you do so immediately. If you have, I’d like to know your opinion, good or bad. If you have any book recommendations for me, I’d be happy to add a few more to my bookshelf.

xoxo, Megan

HOW TO FIND JOY AND CONTENTMENT AS A SINGLE GIRL.

I find myself often, as a single young woman, going through seasons or times or moments of feeling very discouraged and lonely and discontent and sometimes I feel my depressing creeping in.

It’s an every day thing- I go on social media, and I see a new friend of mine is engaged. Or someone is having a baby. Or they have a new boyfriend or girlfriend. All of my close friends who I grew up with are having these incredible experiences, and I’m so beyond happy for them, but I can’t help but stop and ask; “Lord, when is it going to be my turn?”

Perhaps you live in a very small town, or you go to a small church like I do, and you don’t know of any guys who aren’t in a relationship or who would be a good fit for you. I understand. Every guy at my church is married or engaged, or too young for me.

I have had one boyfriend. I was eight years old. I have never had a relationship that truly meant something.

I fell in love two years ago, and I watched as the guy I adored moved from girl to girl. He dated my cousin, one of my best friends, and that destroyed my heart for a long time. Now, he has a son and he’s getting married.

I’ll be honest. I lost faith and my hope disappeared when I found out he was going to have a child. I had this fantasy- I was going to marry my first love, and we would be happy together forever. When I found out that would never happen; I believed I would be single for my whole life. I was crushed.

I have recently found something that can take away my discomfort, and loneliness, and can make me feel peaceful and joyful and so satisfied with my life.

I think of the beautiful stories that I was told as a child. How our God created the Earth and everything upon it. How he parted the red sea. How he helped David defeat Goliath. How he saved us all from spending an eternity in Hell. If he can do such incredible things, such impossible things, he can bring me a life partner.

When the time is right, God is going to give me a husband. He is so large. He is so good. I will have faith, I will put all of my trust in him, and I will wait. And I will be joyful as I wait.

xoxo, Megan

A CHANGE.

Martha’s Granddaughter is so special to me. When I lost my grandma in 2016, I created this blog and used it as a bit of a release. It gave me something to do, something to put my time towards, so I didn’t sit around and think about the weight in my chest constantly. Martha’s Granddaughter brought me such joy and peace during one of the most difficult trials I’ve ever been through, and I will forever love it for that.

However, as I’ve grown and changed in the year since her death, I’ve come to realize that the name Martha’s Granddaughter doesn’t fit the theme of the blog I’m going for now. I don’t see this as a release anymore. I don’t view this blog as being my escape from reality.

I have anxiety, and I very often fear change. At the same time, I (not-so-often) crave change. I need something new and different and exciting to keep me going. So, that’s why I decided to change the name of this blog to Megan Witt.

I’m going to continue to write about my life, and my love of books, and God, and my future. I’m preparing to go to college in the next year; I’ll write about that a lot. I sincerely hope you stick around and go on this crazy journey with me.

xoxo, Megan

 

TRUSTING GOD IN THE MIDST OF A STORM!

Recently, I read this quote; “God will ALWAYS give us more than WE can handle. But He will never give us more than HE can handle.

First, I was diagnosed with a little something called Sinus Tachycardia. Basically, my heart doesn’t always do what it should.

Then, I was diagnosed with very severe Sleep Apnea. I was told that I stopped breathing fifty-seven times an hour, every hour, every night. Apparently, I’m lucky to be alive. I’ve been trying (and failing) to learn to sleep with a CPAP (Continuous Positive Airway Pressure) machine for the last month.

I was dealing with severe abdominal pain last month, and I had to have an Upper Endoscopy so my Gastroenterologist could find out what was causing me to suffer.

And most recently, I was diagnosed with Migraines and High Blood Pressure.

If that sounds like a lot, that’s because it is. But, I have so much to thank Jesus for.

I could have died a long time ago because of my Sleep Apnea. My heart disorder could have been much more severe; I could’ve had a heart attack, as they run in my family. I’m not healthy, and I’m struggling, but I don’t have cancer. I’m not fighting for my life.

Even when my life is hard, and I wish some things were different, I have so much to thank my God for. He is good. He is worthy of my praise.

It took me a long time to learn to lean on Him in the midst of the storm. It wasn’t an easy mountain to overcome. How did I do it?

  1. I read the Bible, even when I didn’t want to.
  2. I prayed every day, even when I felt as though I had been robbed of every last bit of my faith.
  3. I listened to worship music.
  4. I listened to other people’s testimonies and learned from their struggles.
  5. Most importantly: I DIDN’T GIVE UP.

If I can do it, so can you. It takes effort, and it isn’t always a walk in the park, but it’s worth it in the end. If you lean on God, and you live for Him, then He will see you through any trial you face.

How do you keep your faith strong even in the midst of the storm? I would love to hear about it!

xoxo, Megan

BOOK REVIEW: A COURT OF THORNS AND ROSES!

Book Title: A Court of Thorns and Roses
Author: Sarah J. Maas
My Rating: ★★★★★

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I’ll be honest with you. I got this book for Christmas last year (2016) and it took me AGES to finally pick it up and finish it. I tried TWICE to read it – TWICE – and ended up putting it back down both times because I’m assuming I just wasn’t in the mood for it. I’d been in a reading slump for a pretty long time. I read Stalking Jack the Ripper late last year, I read The Fault In Our Stars earlier this year, and I read Everything, Everything last month. That’s it. I didn’t put the book down twice because I hated it, or because it was a horrible book. I put it down twice because I just wasn’t in the mood to read in general.

But, I’ve been very excited for A Court of Thorns and Roses ever since I first discovered it last year, so I decided to try again! And I did the thing! I finished it! I’m so proud of myself, and so beyond happy. Before I was even 50% done with this novel, I went out to Barnes and Noble and purchased A Court of Mist and Fury! I can’t wait to start it! Then, I’ll have an excuse to buy A Court of Wings and Ruin! I’m so looking forward to enjoying this world and these characters even more.

I loved A Court of Thorns and Roses for so many reasons. I’d heard that it was a Beauty and the Beast re-telling; that’s what initially drew me to it. That, and the book cover. Side note: red is my favorite color, ever!

I was hooked after reading the first five pages. I enjoyed every second I spent reading this novel. The storyline was constructed very well, and the pace was good. I have nothing negative to say in regards to the plot. I think Sarah J. Maas is a genius.

The characters are the very best part of this story if you ask me. I love Feyre; she is strong and she is weak at the same time. She would do anything – from hunting for food to risking her own life – to keep the people she loves safe and happy. Tamlin is such a charming, powerful, lovable character. Lucien, my personal favorite, brought a sense of humor to the novel. There are many, many evil and cruel characters who you hate to love and love to hate.

This novel is filled with a beautiful storyline, wonderful characterization, action, and anticipation which will keep you glued to the edge of your seat. And, if you’re anything like me, you’ll have the second book at the ready so you can pick it up as soon as you read the last sentence of this one.

I hope you enjoyed this gorgeous book as much as I did! Let me know your thoughts below.

xoxo, Megan

BOOK REVIEW: STALKING JACK THE RIPPER!

Book Title: Stalking Jack the Ripper
Author: Kerri Maniscalco
My Rating: ★★★★★

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Because the second book in the series, Hunting Prince Dracula, is coming out this month (and I’m so beyond excited for it!) I decided to finally sit down and write a review for what is one of the most fascinating books I’ve read in a long time.

I discovered Stalking Jack the Ripper one day in 2016 when I was browsing through Goodreads, trying to find a new historical fiction to pick up. The title and the cover of the novel are what initially drew me to it. I’ve always been absolutely intrigued by serial killers; don’t ask me why. A very small part of me always wanted to work as a police officer, or for the Federal Bureau of Investigation. That being said, an entire book about a well-known murderer? Right up my street.

Audrey Rose is quite possibly one of the greatest female main characters that I’ve read about in a while. As someone who has always been very enthralled by forensic science, I could personally relate to her very much so. She’s a kick-butt woman who doesn’t let anyone control her life – she’s not afraid to be herself, although she’s often looked down on for her interests. That’s inspiring.

Thomas Cresswell, Audrey’s partner-in-crime, if you will, is also a very interesting character. He brought a sense of humor to what was a relatively dark story.

In my opinion, I never once guessed who the killer was. I had a few ideas throughout the story, but I was never correct. The ending was shocking and beautiful, and I shed a few tears. I’m very happy with the ending that Kerri went with.

The writing was very nice, from the beginning of the novel to the end. I was never bored. I was never ready for it to be over. I enjoyed every second I spent reading this book. I never wanted to put it down!

In conclusion, Stalking Jack the Ripper was a BIG hit for me! I can’t wait for Audrey’s story to continue in a few weeks.

Did you enjoy this novel? If your answer is no, what did you dislike about it? Let’s have a discussion!

xoxo, Megan

QUICK UPDATE!

I’m very sick. I don’t know if it’s the flu, or bronchitis, or something else entirely, but I do know that I feel like (excuse my language) absolute hell.

I’ve been reading, and writing, and reading some more. I have a goodreads account that you can befriend me on if you love books as much as I do!!

I’m doing okay in regards to my anxiety. I haven’t left the house in a few weeks. I’ll be seeing my therapist in a few days and that should help. Here’s some advice – don’t do what I do. Don’t stay in the house when you feel like crap. Don’t push your family and friends away. Don’t reschedule therapy sessions three weeks in a row. Suck it up, so what you need to do, and you’ll feel much better. Let’s hope I’ll listen to my own advice some day soon!

I can’t wait for Autumn. I went on vacation for the first time in three years, and I got my first tattoo. That’s pretty much the only good that’s happened in my life this summer. Are any of you excited for Fall? Haunted hayrides, scary movies, cool weather, Halloween! So many good things. So much to look forward to.

I’ll be focusing more on this blog from now moving forward. & I promise, my next most will be much more exciting than this one.

I hope you all are doing well! Sending you all the love, happiness, and health this nasty world has to offer!

xoxo, Megan